Have you ever had a decision weighing on your mind that you know you have to make, but instead of dealing with it, you decide to put it off and not think about it, making you feel worse. I had this happen to me a couple weeks ago. I felt like I was walking on this downhill path because every decision I made to avoid the big decision I knew I had to make seemed to make me feel worse about myself. I seemed to be hurting myself and others more and more the longer I let this decision weigh on my heart. It got to a point where I knew I had to make a decision to start feeling better and get off this downhill path I was on.
It was a tough decision that I was avoiding, because my head and my heart were telling me two different things. My heart was telling me that I should feel more, but my head was telling me that I should give it a try, because it is something familiar and something I would be comfortable with. I was sitting there, going back and forth between these two sides, when I realized that in order to be truly happy I needed to follow my heart - even if that meant hurting someone I care about or letting other people down. So I took that step and made the decision; it was tough, but it felt good also because this weight was lifted off my heart.
Through this life, I have had to learn that I am not going to make everyone happy, and if I do try to please everyone all the time, I am just compromising my own happiness. Sometimes I have to be selfish and put my feelings before others. And when it comes to a decision between my head and my heart, I will always choose heart because that is where God lives in me, and God never fails.
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