Just Jen

This week I came across a quote by Will Smith that really stood out to me. This quote is... "Throughout life people will make you mad, disrespect you, and treat you bad. Let God deal with the things they do, cause hate in your heart will consume you too." This stood out to me because lately I have really been working on praying when feelings of judgement and dislike come into my heart. Instead of letting these feelings take over and consume me, I will stop and pray instead. I will pray for God to help me work through these feelings and for Him to make a presence in the hearts of the ones I have these feelings towards as well. I will pray that He work in their hearts to help them establish/build a relationship with Him because I had someone do that for me - and it was the best thing anyone has ever done for me. This shows that the power of prayer is real, that God never disappoints and is always good! So instead of letting these feelings build up, let go and l

Have you ever tried fitting in, but it never felt quite right no matter how hard you tried? That's because we were made to stand out, not fit in. As humans, we want so badly to feel included and be liked that we will change who we are to fit in. We will do something that we know isn't right so we can be "cool" in someone else's eyes. We will change our looks to try to uphold this unattainable image of beauty society has created. We will change what makes us unique to be more "normal" because we think "normal" is going to make people like us more. At least this has been a struggle for me throughout my life and the more I have "fit in" the further away I have felt from my true self. And like I said earlier, this is because we were made to stand out, not fit in. God gave us unique qualities to show off to the world, not to hide or change them. He gave us these qualities for a reason and if we embrace our uniqueness and how God ma

When I allowed Jesus into my heart, I really began to ask myself why I was so resistant to do so in the past. I think a main reason is because I was afraid of what He would see. I never felt good enough and thought that He only wanted to see the best of me. This has been my way of thinking for as long as I can remember, and it is hard for me to open up to people because of this. I am a bit of a perfectionist and don't like people seeing my flaws. Or, when I do finally open up to someone, it seems to never be good enough and that they always want something more from me. They either want me to be more fun, more decisive, more accepting, more ready, more mature, more talkative, more knowing, etc. The more they want from me, the more I feel like I have to change to meet their wants. I try so hard but it never seems to be good enough, which is devastating for me because I strive for that perfection. I am also a people pleaser and will compromise my own happiness if that means it makes